I feel extra ugly with all this crap on my face
Wtf I want to wash it off and do my makeup myself
Disappointment
I really wish Paul was my prom date.
Sigh. Maybe we’ll get together sometime in the future…if he ever texts me. I’m giving him space. I feel too overbearing. Too much too much, always too too much. Too much and not enough.
I’m not good enough. I don’t care what anyone else thinks or says I am ugly and vile and disgusting and wasteful and selfish and dumpy, just too fucking MUCH. It’s screaming in my head.
Getting ready for prom
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Banned For Tv (1998) - Attempted Suicide
He came to the antenna with the intention of committing suicide, but the fall was accidental.
I wonder if I’m going to get my period this month
I’ve been really horny lately
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I keep getting that elevator drop feeling
Tingly
Butterflies in my stomach
Every time I think about Paul. Basically I have this feeling all day.
I didn’t get butterflies at all with my ex boyfriend who I thought was absolutely flawlessly gorgeous. Personality is a much more important factor than outer beauty when it comes to relationships. Paul has one of the most beautiful personalities and I’m really glad we’re still talking. I told him he’s one of the only people who makes me feel a lot better than just okay, even though he’s really the only person who can make me feel like this. He’s also the only to have made me cry in a while. He gives me what I need even if he doesn’t realize it, and that just means being his genuine kind self..he’s just someone I respect is all. I keep saying I love him in my mind, but I really don’t. But I do really really like him..if I haven’t said that before..
