Makes me want to cut myself more than my father does. Makes me feel so unworthy of food.
No one makes me feel this way except for him. I haven’t eaten all day. I’ve had about 5 cups of black coffee and 10 of tea. I walked to and from school, then went running for 20 minutes, got ready for work, ran around there for 6.5 hours. I walked to and from there as well and felt like crying on the way back because of what my dad said to me last night. I wrapped up the burger my boss made for me and put it in the fridge for my dad to have.
Selfish, worthless, wasteful, greedy, inconsiderate. I’m a bad person and a disappointment to my parents.
I hope I get run over by a bus.
I deserve to be hit by a truck.
If someone suffocated me in my sleep I wouldn’t blame them. I disgust myself. A waste.